March 31st, 2021


The news was not good

I had the additional imaging on my breasts, and the news is not good. I have masses in both breasts, calcification in both breasts, and the lymph nodes in my left armpit are enlarged (though that is most likely due to my covid vaccine).

Each thing has to be biopsied. That comes to seven biopsies, all told, two different types of biopsy, two days. The clinic where I was today, my usual medical building, doesn't do one type, which means I have to go to a different clinic on one day. I am trying to remain calm and cheerful.

After the imaging was done, and I left the building, I went to have lunch. Bagel Boss was closed for Passover. So I went to WildFig, which is also in that shopping center. While I was getting ready to go in, my phone rang. It was the clinic, the doctor, when told of the dates for my biopsies, said that the date for one was too late, and had them reschedule me earlier. That didn't help me feeling hopeful. So I go for one next week, and one the following week, out on Long island.

After I ate at WildFig (which is delicious, btw) I went to the Barnes and Noble, and got Oldest Brother The Thursday Murder Club for his birthday, and the new Janet Evanovitch "Fox and Hare" book for me. When i got out, it was pouring, aand I had no umbrella. Fortunately the rain slowed and stopped after a few minutes as I made my way back to the bus stop.

It was raining again by the time I made the transfer from the 46 to the 44. Then the 44 ended at Kissena Blvd for some reason so I got a 20 back home.

Called Oldest Brother, and called the Kid and told them what was up. They are both very concerned. Then I Skyped the FWiB, who I had already told by e-mail, and we talked for a good time.

After that I emailed my boss what was going on, and then went to the bedroom and called [personal profile] mashfanficchick and talked to zer. They are going to drive me to the appointment that's not in the usual location. That's on the 14th.

After that i called Oldest Brother again, and then played solitaire until it was time to feed the pets.

So here I am, staring my mortality in the face. I still feel kind of numb about the whole thing.

Gratitude List:

1. The FWiB.

2. The Kid.

3. [personal profile] mashfanficchick and zer mother.

4. My medical plan.

5. My sick time at work.

6. I got my books back without rain damage.
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